LIGHTER

 Woke up in the middle of the nightLooked out the window to stare at the lightHeavens a fantasy made up of cheerI ask God "why did You put me here?"Look in the past, I serve no purposeMan, I don't even give out free serviceBut they say greed rules the whole worldWell if so, my green wont buy a girlThinking of circles, twirls and swirls Ice cream, so white it's named  pearlsWhy is beauty oh so bright? I like the dark, especially tonightThe inside counts, I mean right?But I guess people will never learn, sighExpression of sadness or grief My friends have my back till they all  leaveAnd I'm all alone in a dim roomWith a musty carpet, and an old broomI should sweep away the dust like problemsHide it under my bed won't solve themMom calls me special or uniqueBut that's just a name for the weakI tweaked the game to be in my favorCheated just to get out of hard labor Why am I different? I'm like all the restI have a mind and a heart in my chestPlus my blood has the same exact flowNot all raps are fast, this one showsNice guys go for all these bad chicksOutside is silk, but with the inside of a brickI want one with common senseI'll be her prince, if she's my princessAnd no this isn't a love songIt's the truth, cause you all got it wrongLooked for the answers, all misleadingLike magazines preventing girls from eatingAnd somehow I made it this far, still breathingBarely, sometimes I get nauseous Begging to pass out, be unconscious Sometimes I wish I didn't have a conscience Right from wrong are obviously obvious Look at this rap, like me unstableGoing off on this fableSometimes I just want to cut the cablesAnd end this whole entire programNothing good, like radio A.M.But for all the love and mercyThere's something in me that keeps cursingBursting out with enthusiasm It's not just you, nobody has themWhat? But there was no questionWhy? Crept on me just like depressionRemember 1929? That was its deepestMillions cried, all so sleeplessHistory always repeats itselfKeep it in the book to stay on the shelfAnd why don't I feel like everyone else?I think I put my own self in a shelfI try to laugh and keep on smiling I stay happy from my rhymingAnd no, not for the moneyIt's a hobby, I'm taken as funnyYet this makes me feel so seriousDouble persona, I'm delirious Take a fresh breath of the airOpen your eyes and now you're thereLook at the sky as it gets brighterEverything built on you, but you feel lighter