When is the pain going to end?
Will it eer go away?
My family is the cause,
But I am the one who pays.
I sometimes wish I were older,
Or not a girl at least.
Then my mom would have more faith in me,
And this endless battle would cease.
How can I prove to her that I am worthy?
How can I show that I am true?
Will this feeling of pain ever go away,
Or must I always be blue?
Judgement Day has come it seems,
But I am no where to be found.
I am caught in the inbetween, it appears,
And cannot create a sound.
Will I go or shall stay?
No one will ever know.
For a secret stays inside of me,
Causing fear below.
I walk ith my head held high,
Though my soul is burning with shame.
I wait for him to make the call,
for then, nothing will ever be the same.
It is time, her I go,
I am called before Him.
With my heart beting and my palms sweaty,
He finds me full of sin.
"Take her away" He yells to the guards,
"She is no use to me."
I am pulled away from him,
And will soon face my destiny.
As I approach the gates,
A single tear slips down my face.
It is time to face the music,
For this is now my fate.
The heat washes over me,
Scorching my skin like a flame.
I look around for a single comfort,
But noone can call me by name.
Immediately, I am set to work,
To do forever heavy lifting.
Maybe from now on I'll be,
Stronger than when I was sitting.
My arms easily grow tired,
And my muscles soon become numb,
But it is only me I can blame
For acting so foolishly dumb.
My life is now over,
And this is my future.
Hell is where I belong,
Of this, I am quite sure.
I only have one thing to say,
An apology at that.
I am sorry for all the wrong that I have done,
And hope that noone draws this life from the hat.
I love you, goodbye,
We have gone our separate ways.
I am now here,
While you are there,
So there is nothing more we can say.