Letter to a Narcissist
Dear Narcissist,
For the next two minutes I would like
For you to keep your mouth hung open
That’s right
Open
Most people would think I want you
To shut this portal down
But I know better
I don’t think it’s possible to close something so enormous
So keep it wide open
Jaw to the floor
So that maybe when my words fall on deaf ears
Some of my words could fall into the void
That always has things to throw back at me
Despite your pride being too thick to swallow
And somehow those words could form
Into thoughts
And those thoughts could maybe create some atom of understanding
A girl still has to hope doesn't she?
But until that century passes
And your deathbed gives you an ounce of clarity
Please give me two minutes of your precious time
Please
Oh but before I do
I’d appreciate If you could step off your soapbox first
Because of how dirty your shoes are
Black and crusted with God knows what
Yet how pressed are your slacks
As if you used the angriest iron
To burn your pant legs into submission
Telling them that their wrinkles are their sin and not yours
Telling them that they aren’t worth their price tag
With every puff of steam
Every gust of hot, blistering and condescending air
You tell them there’s no other way
They forced your hand
They gave you no choice
They enticed you to put your hand on the iron and made you pull it across their writhing body
That being belted and bound to your growing waist
Every day for five years
Was the only way to show they loved you
That covering your aging skin and achy tired knees was the only purpose they served
That was all they were good for
But maybe in some universe
Some alternate reality
You believe this is the only way to go to work
You believe that the world swallowed your jeans
Your sneakers
They swallowed your best shirt and tie
And you were left only in rags
When the truth is
You were naked and weak
And you came up to her and ripped off the little bravery she had left
And you complained when her torn sleeves didn’t fit your arms
Pulsing with frustration
And her pants were too wrinkled
From too many late nights
Those shoes were crafted by angels and you took those too
You shoved your feet in and broke through the toe of each loafer
And you cursed that she had the audacity to even buy cheap loafers
Well news flash
I’m done being ironed every Tuesday
And The world doesn’t owe you a new pair of shoes
Nor does it owe you the right to a throne you only keep warm for someone else
You curse the day you met her
You curse the day you married her
Wishing away with all your strength
The day I was brought into the world
So I hope one day you feel naked again
I hope your shoes are taken from you
Your shirt no longer useful
Your pants burnt to pieces in the fire of your hatred
And your skin shivering at how cold the prison you locked yourself in is
Barren
Alone and afraid
As you finally begin to wonder
Why we kept our clothes from our father
Hope this letter finds you well
Hope you found it before you fell
Sincerely,
The Daughter of Your Former Majesty