i don't know what to do anymore
ive tried it all
but it doesnt work.
i talk to people
but i feel worse.
as if im a burden
someone who should not be here.
so i try to leave
but i feel worse.
as if im hurting someone
that doesnt seem to care.
but at the same time
i know they care.
but it doesnt stop me
i still open the bottles
i still swallow the pills.
but the pain doesnt stop
it comes quicker and knocks me harder.
i cant breath when it comes
and sometimes i think ill go
but i dont.
the pain leaves me worse than i was
and when you find out
you yell at me and cry
as if im not the one trying.
you say im giving up
but honestly ive put more work into this
than anything.
i just wanna go.
can i go?