I hate the word faggot. And if I could apologize for every time I called you that It still wouldn't be enough. I still think about that day. As that one word left from my lips there is a pain in my stomach now. The correct term for faggot is gay. I was a stupid kid. Lavell Brown jr. is a 20 year old legalized amazing human being whom I am proud to claim as my brother. I could sit up for hours talking, laughing and joking with you about all the times we've spent together. you are good company to keep. my brother, who is the son of two human beings that provided for him his wholde life until he was able to provde for himself. And he graduated highschool.. And i remember as if it was just yesterday when he hugged me harder than he had ever hugged me in years. see we were never on good terms because he was secluded from reaelity simply because all flowers bloom at their own pace and.. he did bloom. It was finally his turn to be himself, and every night I think about how you left me here crying because nobody understands me better than you can and they wonder why you answer the phone every time that I call. And you wonder why I cry every time that you come home.I hated that you left me here to fend for myself. But you knew that there would come a day where I would grow strong. A day when the rose locked up inside of me would finally break from its cage and bloom.