I got COLD FEET because He keeps put'n Me barefoot out in the cold when I'm put at a crossroads, He threw up.
I choose My well BEing with yes to Me while telling Him no & it triggers Him.
He, Who continually chooses uncontrollable anger direct'd full force with covert intent to overpower Me.
I'm not one to carry anger or resentment.
I prefer lightHeartedness.
I don't deserve His anger relentlessly imposed upon Me.
He won't man up.
Instead, He evades Self responsiblity by giving Me His big old bag of pussy to hold for Him.
IT IS NOT Mine to carry & I'm giving it back...
For it's rightfully His to hold & feel the weight of His actions.
Then He will see how truly strong I Am.
B'cuz I held His shit together for Him, longer than He did.
Hoping He'd do better for Himself.
I'm Rightfully pissed off now tho.
I womaned the fuq up & took too much, far too long.
While accepting false apologies.
And that's on Me...
NO MORE.
This treatment indicates hostility towards Me & it's become wearisome.
No rest for the wicked.
As He calculates gaslighting, $h!t talk'n, isolation, guilt'n & shame'n Me into submission from tiresome days like that.
I deserve better & I BE going after it.
He thinks He's coming here to make sure He's dominant.
He ain't gonna have no more free "swings" while I dance, duck & pivot around to evade the entitlements He's attempting to shackle Me in.
Little does He know I prepared for this moment.
My kid gloves are off.
I'm going bare knuckle, fist to cuff, toe to toe.
I found a reason to Live for & a reason to die for....
I'm that reason.
I'll be damned if I go down on His terms.
Imma fight with all My Life that I've Lived.
ONLY I! Take authority over Me.
He's gonna learn that.
He thinks He knows Me ....
WHILE
He made it crystal clear Who I Am to Him.
But He never thought to consider, what makes Me, become, Who I truly Am.
I've been studying Him in such close proximity.
And He cannot see Me coming, because I'm already there.
Setting Himself up for the 1 inch punch KO.
Coming at him.
World title fight set to trigger off anytime this weekend.
He asked for it.
Oh don't I know this.
For, I've been nothing but Loving to Him.
And that's what's gonna sting the most.
I'm nothing like the bad things He says.
Not My job to convince otherwise.
I AM
Who
I AM
to Him.
His loss is My gained freedom.
For I create & know My true Self.....
Cuz only I can.
I AM a Lighthouse of Love, honesty & compassion....
Balanced by a rival power rooted in the dark night of My Soul to impose shock'n defeat.
I'm balanced & light foot'd.
He asked to contend & I clap back.
Eager to unleash the beast He provoked. Unapologetically.
In the name of
MY
inner peace, I'm done BEing played.
I'm taking a stand that will be the perfect Loving measured dose of His Own medicine.
He needs a shocking jolt to realize what He's done.
Eyes wide open....
And I command....
SEE ME NOW.
He will knuckle down & under, because of the Love for Himself.
I WILL hear Him say "I'm sorry. I'll leave You ALONE!"
Only then!
He will finally leave Me BE.
He is in charge of His own needs & happiness.
He's a grown ass mutha fuq'n man capable of Self responsiblity.....
NOT My Child Who still needs pampering and a pamper change.
I had to declare to You, My Pops that I'm stood the fuq up, determined to stay strong on My COLD FEET...