This past year,

Things have changed for the different.

Not for the better,

Not for the worse,

For the different.

I don't understand

What the hell I use to be,

But I just hope that it's all getting better

Or it could be getting worse,

You never really know

What you're gonna get.

As long as life keeps going,

It doesn't matter how you feel.

Like it or not,

You're only one person in this totally fucked up world.

When they say to kill yourself,

It's not gonna change anything

For the better.

Everything will be worse

For the ones that actually

Gave a damn.

When it comes to things being good

Or things being bad,

Why does it matter what they think?

I know, take your own advice,

Don't say things you don't mean.

But killing myself never affected you.

You could've stopped me

A long time ago,

But you never did.

And you knew

What I was capable of.

So fuck you

And all your emotions

You claim to have.

If you really cared

Then why am I not by your side?

Why didn't you stop me?

But like I said,

What difference does one person make

In this totally shitty world?

None at all,

And you know it.

So don't pretend that all this is a shock.

All this anger and venom that I spit

In your face,

It's all for you,

For the one person I felt would

Pull me from the edge

Of this madness.

But then again,

Why the hell do I care?

Things just never really work out

In this crazy world.

Keep things together,

Keep your smile plastered on your pretty little face,

Cause no one ever made a difference

For the better,

For the worse,

Things are just different.

Everything works out,

It's all balanced,

But you can't open your eyes enough

To see that.

Whatever your reasons are

To shut out reality,

Don't drag me down with you.

You do you,

I do me,

It all works out.

But don't come to my funeral

And talk about how much you miss me

When you could've helped me

In the first place.

Don't be sad

When we finally

Kill ourselves.