I forget about how hard my heart beats when you’re in my presence

but this time the Venetian architecture we were in was crumbling

and the rustic black-barred elevator you were locked in was sinking

and I dove into the debris ridden waters

holding my breath in my lungs as my mouth screams

in hopes breaking down this locked gate in order to hold your head to my face again

I shook the reality out of the bars

that stood between us

denying with every reason why we should not be together

I have grown thick skinned throughout the years

and the pressure has been less bothersome to me now

but it is the suppressing water and its limitless depths that drown my thoughts

everything that I’ve wanted to say my mouth could not amplify through the noiseless medium

these words for you powered by my desire wander through the waters like nomads sent to the oceans just trying to swim and survive

and the idea of me and you swimming out of of this wretched zone

flickers constantly 

and burns brightly

when you swam towards my hands that fight with the cold to be with yours

you kissed them out of the guilt that cloaked the feelings you’ve had for me

calling yourself selfish for and fearful of hurting me

but not once have I ever forgotten about you

And once I was able to pull you out from what lost you

I forgot about being foolish to risk my life to save yours

The minutes of resuscitation couldn’t change what you wanted for me

and all I ever wished at that moment surrounded by broken pillars

was to inhale forgiveness through your lungs

even the ones who have strengthened themselves through tribulations

can be so vulnerable to others so sweet and honest

and I look into the distance for a place where we can see each other again.