I've learned to not think of food as pleasure. I don't rightly see why I saw it that way before. I've come to love the ache, the growl. I eat enough, just enough to have energy and take that energy and burn it all off. I'll bleed out everything else. Sweet cycles are like tricycles you know.. reliable. Always there to hold you up and keep you balanced. In a world of imbalance I need that. Don't we all? I like the emptiness. It makes me feel so whole. I have control. Sweet control. Food is bad for me. My body doesn't even like it. Not really. My insanity is just a theory but it makes so much since to me. When your crazy, I guess everything is ok. I like being crazy