It isn't your fault. You don't deserve this pain, you are not weak. It might feel like you are weak because you can't seem to find the strength to stand up for yourself. The inability to stand up for yourself does not mean the absence of strength, it is quite the opposite if you really think about it. You are so strong, the love you have is so strong, that fighting back is difficult, because you are too afraid to hurt the person who is hurting you. Sounds crazy to many, I am sure. The love we feel is real, when you love someone, you're willing to endure pain, rather than see those you love feel hurt, and you most definitively can't see yourself being the cause of the pain. As it is you already feel like you're responsible for whatever caused them to cuss you out or hit you. It is not your fault, not at all. You don't deserve this, and it is not going to get better, it will only get worse. If you are crying alone, and hiding bruises, but you are still smiling for the world and pretending that nothing is wrong, you are so much stronger than you think. It's not your fault, you don't deserve this pain, you don't have to beg for love, you can be loved freely, you deserve to be loved. Love yourself, run, runaway as fast as you can. It won't be easy, but you are strong enough for this fight, this is the most worthwhile fight you can ever enter in, the fight for your life, your sanity, and your well being. You have taken enough beatings, you've been torn down enough. You deserve to be built up, you deserve to rise aboove the hell you've been living in. You deserve to be free from fear, abuse, and hateful words. You are worth more than you can ever imagine, you are not worthless, you are not pathetic, you are not ugly, weak, or any of the hateful things you have been led to believe. You are strong, beautiful and priceless. You are worthy of love, believe that, love yourself first, love yourself enough to get out, because this is not the life that was intended for you. You were destined for greatness, that is why you are so strong, that is why you love so purely, because you were meant for amazing things. Believe that, love yourself. It is not your fault, you do not deserve this, you have done nothing to deserve this pain, walk away, love yourself. You are strong enough, if you are strong enough to endure the pain you feel and are subjected to every single day, you are strong enough to leave, no it will not be easy, yes it will hurt, yes you will cry, but you will live, you will get thru this, and you will smile one day, and it will be over. Love yourself, leave, because it's not your fault and you don't deserve this. You deserve so much more.