When the time comes to bring your A-game and be at your best the pressure is on.

"How will I do?", "I"m gonna fail....", "I'm not good enough." "They're gonna win, they're better"

Ok, Screw that. At the end of the day all it takes is you. It takes you to do your best, it takes you to give it your all. At least you tried, no one can take that from you. 

You can not have the car, you can be struggling, you can want to kill yourself or die each and every day because you are your own enemy. Believe me when I say it is that hard. Some things aren't that hard but life just isn't one of them.

You are who you are and this is me. This poem is just a poem I feel may be good enough to earn me $1000 to pay for my education. It's the one thing that is the building block of my foundation. It costs what I can't afford but I'm not giving up. All I can do is try.

I don't have my license at the age of 19, I'm not working this summer so how am I going to pay for school? God will take care of that. See I've been an outsider since day one. I didn't know that was my purpose until now. Even now i'm still lost. Life is that Hard but it's Hard for a reason.

There are many who have it harder, there are many who are dead even though they are physically alive. If there wasn't so much struggle and turmoil in this world how would things be? If I didn't hurt how would I know what it feels like to survive and be happy? I'm tired of the lies, tired of the false pretenses, I am me. No one else but me. 

I am tired of the titles, tired of the status, I am just a person. I am just a life. Have you ever thought about How Earth never existed there would be no sky, no roads to travel on, no secenary to pass by in the car or on the bus as I was on that day in high school. 

So with all of that said you have a peek into my thoughts and lifestyle. If you want to know more I am more than willing to talk. My heart can be yours to do what you want. At the end of the day I am just a person here for a short time. At this present time I am no more than a girl who likes to talk and write. My words written down or typed out say what I never let loose but keep inside. 

I hope you got the opportunity to meet me or at least say hi.

Nochia.