this isn't my home anymore
I walk into my room,
and invite instant dread
to depression, I am doomed
I sit on my bed
I watch calmly as the flashbacks come
I close my eyes
and instantly become numb
This is no longer the room I love, but rather one I despise.
I no longer am welcomed
I feel the tears come, and put on a disguise
I go to leave, I cannot wait
but my mother sits before me, and she dictates
my every move, she bothers
she is what sits between me and a light
like a barrier, my own mother
baricades me from happiness, and I try to put up a fight
but the more I fight, the more she takes away,
everything that makes me happy.
she doesn't understand the damage she is doing,
and the damage that has already been done.
I could never be close to her, nor my father
they raided my secrets,
so why should I bother?
when they kept me from happiness