"I"m terrified." 

The words slip from my mouth. 

I never knew how true they were until they were staring me in the face. 

It was such a relief to tell you that I'm falling apart, 

That I'm scared of who I am, 

Even though there's nothing you can do. 

I don't even know if I want you to. 

It's okay. 

Now I can stop pretending it's not real, 

Even if you choose to. 

Someone knows. 

The weight's off my shoulders. 

I'm terrified, 

But maybe I can get better.