i wear bright clothing

so that i will not be seen

 

I win, I score, I get the prizes.

i never win friendship or love

 

My shining golden hair catches your eye.

my face, hidden beneath, is shining as well

with glistening tears

 

My feathers are unruffled, and I stand proud and tall.

I know who I am and what I do.

but the nagging voice in my head

reminds me of what i lack

 

 

the empty space within me grows

 

the words cannot fill it

 

i am lonely

 

i am alone

 

no one sees beyond my happiness. They cannot understand my need

for what will fill me inside. 

the shockingly red lipstick

distracts from my crimson 

heart.

 

and i let it. proudly

i show off my colors,

parading them through the halls

waiting as the empty space

fills me up

 

this blank page inside me

is not for others to destroy

i must fill it myself

with scribbles and sketches

ideas and drawings

novellas, symphonies, romances

with Life. 

 

below my colorful cover

is a blank notebook

for me to write in

 

my emptiness

is my opportunity