Shamed and confused

Abandoned and abused

I smile for Instagram 

Only to feel like I let all my friends and family down

Pose for a selfie with my friends at church

Go home and snapchat myself drowning in a bottle of hurt

 

Behind the confines of the online community

Lies a boy so lost

hooked on drugs to numb the pain

Confused about his own sexuality 

Peers question his masculinity 

As he questions whether to love a girl or guy

Tears run from his eyes

Scared of the names or to face reality

He pops some pills and falls asleep in front of the TV

 

My smile only hides this face full of pain

Confusion, anger, and anguish

I long for the day that I can say no filly

Until then i'll pour my sorrows into a vodka bottle