Inevitable
January 12, 2016 at 11:33 PM
I believe it’s difficult
Accepting the feeling
Because you have no idea
When the words:
“I don’t love you anymore”
Will slip from the lips
That would kiss your pain away
You will never know until
It hits you
You can try to prepare yourself
You can try to know how to act
Or to respond
You can try your hardest and still fall
But then they reassure you
Make you feel on top of the world
Take you out
In the middle of the night
And count every star
Until the sun rises
In hopes of beating time
From getting the better of us
Or they can count every freckle
Upon your rosy cheeks
And praise every inch of your skin
As if every limb was a blessing from God
They can make you feel loved
But then
When you’re not ready
When you’re unprepared
They hit you
With the bomb that ricochets
“I don’t love you”
Or
“You’re not what I used to want”
They can do that
They can take your eyes
That were full of hopes
And dreams of a better life
Fill them with the deepest shade of darkness
Extracting every, tiny
Bit of light that was left
Tear you apart
Limb from limb
Break your heart
Pulling apart
The one piece of yourself
You kept sacred
Tearing it
Muscle from muscle
Vein from vein
Everything that makes you, you
Is shattered in the hands that
Used to draw secrets on
Your sleeping skin
And by someone you put
Your whole self into
The person who filled
Your conscience with promises
Of endless love
And promises of keeping you safe
And that’s what terrifies me
It’s not just the person
It’s something
It’s someone of the inevitable
Will love me and destroy me
And it’ll appear out of nowhere
And I know I won’t be able to stop it.
-(hms)