Being Smart and Depressed
is like a double edged sword
Your decisions are based off
of what you feel, but held back
by what you know, And it's hard
to get anywhere when you can 
not express how dead you feel
inside because that little voice 
inside your head is constantly
telling you that you will regret
your next decision, but that 
other voice inside your head 
is telling you to just do it now
because you are no longer 
suppossed to care about the
consuquences of what could
happen. And so you stop and
stay where you are while livin
a life that you can't stand to live
You want to dye your hair and
do drugs and have sex and get 
into the car with that older man
and you put yourself into all of 
those situations, but in the end 
you have always backed out &
pulled yourself back into reality
but there are no promises for 
the outcome of what will come,