I'm sorry, I miss you
June 2, 2016 at 9:42 PM
I’m sorry that I continuously
Make jokes about you
I know you don’t know I do
But there’s this part of me that
Feels entitled to apologize discreetly
I know you have
I know you’ve apologized
For what’s happened
And never telling
I know the only person you’ve physically apologized to
Is yourself
Practicing in front of the mirror
As if your mirror was me
Because I was the one you knew
Who’d already fallen
And you knew you weren’t going to be there to catch me
I hope you know I’m proud of you
It’s not fair for me to say
You’re not you anymore
Because this is probably the most you
You’ve ever been
Now you’re no one but you
I used to like just you
And I’m sure some part of me still does
It’s just hard trying to wrap the situation
Around my head
Sometimes the situation
Feels like a noose
That keeps getting tighter and tighter
Every time the thought of you crosses my mind
I guess the hardest part
Is knowing that we will never be
And you don’t look at me the same anymore
You don’t look at me as if I am the Sun
You don’t see me as if I am the most beautiful painting
I hope you know
I miss the way you used to look at me.
-(hms)