I'm scared to grow up because I don't want to turn into my mother
They always say "you look just like her"
And don't you behave the same?
I don't want to grow up and be so volatile that my kids can't come to me
I don't even know if I want kids
If I turn out like her, they'll hate me
I've hated my mother for years
I'm only fifteen
Just a lonely little girl in an unforgiving world
I cut and I cry, abandoned in the black night
I don't even care at this point
We fought about self-harm again, she and I
She heard a rumor that I was still cutting
And she didn't even ask if I was okay
Just started yelling at me like it wasn't even real
Saying we'd had this conversation and who was I to make other people uncomfortable because someone couldn't keep their mouth closed
Of course, I'm to blame
Who else would she fault?
You see, I'm scared to grow up because I don't want to be like her
I don't want to grow up and not know how to listen
I can't love myself because I'm scared to become her
Too scared to grow up.