I'm afraid
I’m afraid
I’m afraid of speaking
Of letting people know my thoughts and feelings
Letting people in and letting them see
All my fears and insecurities
All my hopes and dreams
I’m afraid of getting too close
Knowing it’ll hurt when they go
When they leave
Because everybody leaves
I’m used to being alone yet still I’m scared
Scared that when I awake they’ll no longer be there
I’m scared of people
What they think and what they know
What they feel and what they show
Being around groups makes me anxious
My heart speeds up
Just by being around people
I get dizzy and I can’t breathe
Yet still I speak
I let them know
Careful of the emotions I choose to show
I let people in and beg them not to go
I’ll keep them close
Even through I’m afraid that one day
They won’t feel the same
I show them my love
My thoughts and emotions for them
I let them in
I let them in
I let them in and they let me in
And it’s okay
I may shake when I speak but I’m stronger each day
I may get dizzy around people but I’ll still go
Having all eyes on me may make me want to cry and hide
But still I stand
But still I stand with dry eyes standing tall and proud
I’ll make my voice loud
I’ll make myself be heard
No matter how hard how scary it may get
I’ll speak
I’ll let people know my thoughts and my emotions
I’ll make them want to stay
I’ll say my hopes, my dreams, and my insecurities
And when they leave I’ll be okay
Because I know that the ones that matter
Will always stay