I'm sorry if i fell asleep, or if I closed my eyes

I'm sorry for missing those special moments, or making you cry inside

I wish I had been more open, to you and to myself

I wish I hadn't hid away, in a room with someone else

I wish and wish and wish, but it still seems so unreal

I look at all these empty pictures, and you dont know how it feels

To look at an empty person with no soul inside

Without lungs that breath or a heart that beats, I just can't say goodbye

You look just like you are sleeping, but you will never wake

I swear I see your body moving, but I just hallicinate

Why is life so unfair, you were the best of the best

Everybody loved you, yet it feels like you were the first that left

You havent seen me graduate or get married, and now you never will

I just want to grab you and make you stop being so still

But I hope your dreams have gardens, with flowers as far as the eye can see

I hope you find your family, and God please love him the way he loves you and me

Because down here it's the hardest thing to do

I remember your laugh, so joysous and pure

I remember your hands, gentle yet strong from hard work

I'll miss those hugs you gave me and the kisses on my cheek

I'll miss the way you loved everything so wholefully

I'll miss you reading the newspaper and reclining in your chair

I'll miss the way you loved God and your thin white hair

I'll miss the way you blew into your hankie so loud and honking

But most of all, it seems, I'll miss you with your garden

For you may be gone but the beauty you worked so hard for remains

And I know that these little wonders will stay  

So everytime I see a new flower blooming, Poppy

I'll think of you