If only I could've stoppped myself from becoming so nervous.

If only I could've avoided eye contact with the stranger next to me, it wouldn't be so awkward.

If only I could've said no, I wouldn't be dreading doing something I don't want to do.

If only I could've sat quietly without stating my opinion, I wouldn't be overthinking it all so much.

If only I could've struck a conversation, I would have a new friend.

If only I could've told my mother how much I loved her before she left.

If only I could've stopped myself from thinking about my past, I wouldn't be feeling this way now.

If only I could've.

I'm tired of hearing those words conjoined.

I'm tired of having every single thought begin with 'if only I could've'

because there is no 'if only I could've.

There shouldn't be any at all.