I know it's been six months since we haven't talked, but this is what I would say if I didn't have you blocked.

The more I try to forget you the more I feel lost.

Shattered is an under statement of my heart how you have broken me

My trust is now a box, thats locked. No one can open me.

I've acted like I've moved on. I found something real but I ended that, because I needed more time to heal. 

I'm paralyzed when I see your eyes in every boy I meet, and I fantasize about what I'd say if I saw you in the street's.

I don't know, I would probably just stand there frozen cold, or start to scream and cry, or reach for your hand to hold.