I Would Have Remebered
I can’t remember what I did yesterday
Or the day before that
Or the day before that.
But that’s normal.
Besides, I remember him.
My husband left me long ago
Left me in this hellhole of a nursing home.
“He comes every day,” my nurse tells me.
She is lying.
If he came, I would have remembered.
“Alzheimer's,” my nurse calls it.
It sounds familiar,
But I can’t quite recall
Where I happened to hear it prior.
She tells me it’s a disease
That makes me forget
And eats away my brain.
She is lying.
If I had a disease, I would have remembered.
A woman comes to visit me,
A woman I’ve never seen.
She says her name is Marget,
That she is my daughter,
And I named her that after my sister.
She is lying.
If I had a daughter, I would have remembered.
She asks me how I like it here
How the food is
How I like my roommate
Why does she torment me
With such pretenses?
Is she testing my memory?
I am an old lady -- I’m allowed
To forget some things.
She is lying.
If I had a roommate, I would have remembered.
She cries when I say I don’t know her
And it blends with the white walls
And she holds my leathery hand,
As if that will make me know her.
She tells me she loves me anyways.
She is lying.
If someone loved me, I would have remembered.