I wish things could go back to the way were,

I wish I could be full of beauty and energy,

and my eyes could be filled with life,

I wish I wasn't stubborn and lazy,

I wish I didn't cry myself to sleep,

But things arn't the way they were,

I am filled with dread and regret,

my eyes look dead,

I am menetally crazy,

and tears roll down my cheeks,

before I reach unconsciousness,

I am a reckless mess,

what ever happened?

did I break up with my ex?

No, the answer is not yes.

I am simply the victim of one sided love,

and when I look at the sky above,

I see you and me in an imaginary world,

oh all the times I have hurled,

from the pain you have caused me,

so unintentionally,

you are slowly killing me from the inside out.

oh and your always filling me with doubt,

All the times that I thought I was crazy,

all becaue I was just a little hazy,

you give me hope,

just for me to mope,

my thoughts are deep,

and are well expected to end in a cry and a weep,

All the times that you were rude,

it just worsened my mood,

but all the times that you were polite,

those were all the times that I thought about in the night.

Every word that I want to take back,

all the times when I would backtrack,

well those are the times when my heart goes black.

sometimes my emotions are so strong,

that I just go numb,

 but when you can think of a song,

that makes you feel strong,

thats when you feel like you belong,

something that I can relate to,

it makes it all feel true,

the feelings I have for you,

the future that I drew,

If only you knew,

how much I loved you