As I Was
I sit and think,
Unaware of my surroundings,
And could not speak.
For I could not believe,
What I already know to be true.
It hurts, a lot.
But how can it hurt when I’ve been so numb?
I must have been so dumb.
I couldn’t see
What was lying before me.
It must have been a while since I’ve felt.
For now I see,
For now I know,
For now I feel.
It must have been an hour.
They came rushing in,
Holding what I believe to be my fate.
How long until I know how much longer I have to wait?
I know at this point,
What was lying before me.
So I stand,
Not so grand,
Ignoring what I hear,
And I accept what’s about to happen
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Now I look back
And I smile.
Not because I’m proud
But because I know I did the right thing