I've grown up

Stone cold

Emotional, and in

Turmoil

 

I'm desperate

Anxious and isolated

Self-hating and clingy

Do you really love me?

 

It’s only because

I love you,

that I

Worry

 

Because I love you

I overthink

My spirits sink

And My skin crawls

And My heart falls

 

Because I love you

I put you over me

 

Because I love you

You're a fly

Trapped in my web

Of self-harming lies

 

Because I love you

I want so much as to die?

 

If you don't love me too

What could life possibly

Offer me, that it doesn’t

To you

 

It's charming and romantic

To say I could never really move on

To be in love with someone

Endearing, but really traumatic

 

It's not until you sit me down

Tell me right

That I will realize

 

How alarming

And disregarding

I actually am

 

But,

because I love you

For you I will try

 

I let go of our mishaps

And wear them with pride

I breath out, my inhibitions

And in, my intuitions

Letting myself cry, sometimes

 

Accepting the fact that

You can't read my mind

I'll trust you to trust me

And talk to you, like I think to me

 

Simple as that

Right?

 

I will push apart mountains

And pull down the sky

I would take a thousand bullets

Or even die

 

 

But death is easy, my love

 

So

Because I love you

I choose life