I Miss You
Dear boy I almost could have loved,
I miss you
I miss you like the sun misses the moon
Fine and then crashing
Slowly
So slowly
Until I’m gasping under the weight of missing you
Missing you and knowing
Knowing there isn’t an eclipse scheduled anymore
I miss you
I miss you like I miss the stars
Surrounded by artificial light
Staring at inky blue
Praying for a glimpse of the bright light
Something to let me know you're still around
Something to show I’m not alone
Knowing that the lights won’t turn off though
And I’ll be staring at the expanse of inky blue
I miss you
I miss you like a chained dog misses freedom
Pulled back by a chain I never knew was there
Straining against it
But never budging
The collar just gets tighter
I can’t breathe anymore
Knowing that there isn’t going to be any release
At least until I finally let you go
But I miss you too much
I miss you enough to keep falling
I miss you enough to keep staring
I miss you enough to keep straining
Because sometimes
Sometimes eclipses happen
Sometimes I see the stars in the sky
Sometimes I am released from my chain
But it always ends the same
The moon leaves
The stars get covered
And the chain pulls against me again
I’m just back to missing you
I'm just back to being me
The girl who almost could have loved you.