Is there ever a person who your heart painfully years for

Who, when you see them, it is more than you forget how to breathe, more than you get lost in the sight of them, more than you just becoming a statue and stare in awestruck in their presence.

It is when every bodily function seems to fail you and you feel like dying. It is when you want to grab ahold of them and pull their body so close to yours that they can't help but notice you and you feel as if you will never have to say goodbye to them. It is knowing the end is near but refusing to believe it. It's knowing the end is staring you in the eyes only your eyelids are scrunched-up tight because, as the child you are, you believe that by not seeing the end then it can't see you and you don't have to face it and maybe, oh please, just maybe it will go away and you can pretend that things are okay again.

But you are not a child and you can't stop the pain from coming. 

Either keep your eyes closed and let the end happen and don't let yourself say goodbye and let yourself be left with some memories because it is not always such a terrible thing to let someone go.

Yes, please, please do that instead. Open your eyes and create some memories, endings are not easy, so make it a "See you later" type of deal. Always plan for later, my goodness always try to plan.

Take pictures, please for the sake of your sanity and well being, even if they remain undeveloped or stuffed away in a box on a high shelf somewhere, please take the pictures! You are going to want them later to have and look back on. 

Take it from someone with so many regrets they can not seem to hold themself together from the sheer force of their soul trying to escape from their body and all of their parts wanting to jump in different directions so that they can fulfill the longings and desires I hold within. 

See you later.