I’ve been counting down the days all semester

It's all I've been thinking about since August

Leaving

Graduating

Never looking back

Now I’m stopped by something

A loathsome feeling

That I never once expected to feel

Especially in regards to high school

Regret.

 

I have a 3.9 GPA

I study

I work hard

I take AP classes

I shouldn’t have any regrets

I did it, I succeeded

But then again,

I didn't really did I?

 

I never went to Homecoming or Prom

I wasn’t even asked

I never got picked up at my house for a date

Feeling like a human sparkler out  of how much I liked him

I never even had a boyfriend

Not even the childish ones that last for a week

No parties either

No drunken nights where I hooked up with a random guy I’d hope to forget the next morning

I was never even kissed

Not once.

These are all of the things you’re supposed to experience before you graduate

I haven’t done a single one

 

I suffered through the utter stupidity and horrendousness that is high school

Without ever experiencing the joys of teenage life I’d seen others have

My senior year is halfway over now

I can’t believe all of the things I’ve missed out on

I can’t believe I forgot to have fun

I’ve almost completed four years of high school

And yet somehow

After all this time

I forgot to actually be in high school.