The pain that I have hid

In my heart’s deepest oceans,

You drained

With your openness to me

 

Yet, you decided it would be ok

To let it all go, for your heart is an ocean

Deeper than my empty poetry could ever drain.

 

You still love him, and I know

I understand, I see it clearly

When you talk about him

It's like he is me.

It's like you're looking into his eyes

And I am no longer anything

Anything in that room

But a reflection I see in your eyes.

 

Fuck You,

I care so much

 

I want the best for you

I fell in love, in no time with you

I fell in love with your voice, your strength, and your pains

Bring them to me

Bring me your pains

And I will try to heal you

 

Fuck You,

You'll never let me in

And my heart continues to break

Because of you

 

Still,

I love you

You’re my reason to be

My reason to soar

My hearts to reason  to believe - in the world

You have the smile that I cannot see

Without pain flowing through

All of my veins and arteries

 

And how can I forget you

When your name is everywhere?

The strum of a guitar

A gust of air

The tap of the foot

A ballad of a piano

They all say your name, they all say it loud

Its either that's how they have designed them

Or my mind has forced my ears

To recreate them

For every sound I hear

Is one that pushes me to anger

To remember that you don’t want me

To remember the pain that our relationship has brought me

 

And you have no idea, for I will not tell you

I will never make you feel guilty

Because I love you

 

How do I know?

I love you, because when you

Smile, I smile

When you laugh, I laugh

When you cry, I cry

When you’re angry, I am too

Regardless of reason I follow you!

Because all I need to be happy is joy

Joy to come out of you

 

I cannot quit.