I am unsure

Tue, 07/21/2015 - 11:54 -- Monae J

I am unsure of I have went heartless, numb, or pearlized by all of the loveless relationships .
I could lose someone close , probably won't shed a tear.
Its tattooed in my brain that nothing last forever.
How could you stay so long then turn around and leave ?
It never made since . I've gotten used to it.
Before getting emotional attached , I always remind myself that there will come a day when they leave, so prepare.
When was the last time I cried ?
I dont know .
I felt tears whaling up , but they didn't fall.
I am sure that would felt nice.
That probably would have made me feel more human.
My emotions are more selfish , then selfless.
Could it be that I have went heartless ?
I've trusted so many people with it.
pieces of my heart are on the bottom of there shoe, under there finger nails, and in the trash pile.
Could I have went numb ?
Not reacting to things , as I should.
Can't feel that heart break
I got shot in my heart and I couldn't feel the bullet pierce
My soul drained from me , but yet to lose sight of my dreams .
Could I have went pearlized ?
I can't get emotionally attached even if I tried.
I have been hung , thoug sliced, tongue chopped, kicked in the face, and felt none of it.
I see your mouth moving , but your words have no effect or power over me.
you wanna leave okay , I'll cherish our memories.
Sexual and non sexual relationship come to a end.
No this isnt a me being bitter , I am something else , but bitter isnt the word.
my love was burned up and over cooked, and served for the dogs to eat.
what do you think those loveless relationships did ?

This poem is about: 
Me
My family
My community
My country

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