January 13th
Birthed into a month
Of cold cold
winter cold
It's a murderer
It stalks us at first
You can feel shivers down your back
Before you know it
you wake up and it's there
Coldly killing
all life it surrounds
Kind of like disappointment
Irony
The years that pass us by
Mine in slow motion
Others in a flash
Curious, tranquilized, imaginative
Still years later
Unsatisfied, wholehearted,
but patient
Life Is like
A painting
Being painted
One,
or a few,
strokes at a time
Yearning,
for lighting fast
strokes at a time
Yearning for completion
I want more
a deeper meaning
a sign
A saying to stand by
I want more
But what if more
Simply isn't enough?
Like one cloud
alone,
in the big blue sky
I Lost myself,
trying to please everyone
Now,
I’m losing everyone
trying to find myself
So I close my eyes
To old ends
Old desires
& open my mind
To new beginnings
And wait
I wait
Without expectation