i am sad
i just lost my best friend of 5 years
no one has ever been this sad
the overextending ever protruding depth of my sorrow can never be matched
no one can cry the tears for me
im not mad
i am a hole
i consume all the happiness i let myself experience
when i finally accept a good thing it tells me that it loves me too much
and i don’t love you back
i consumed you
and now you have to leave
im sorry
im so so sorry that i am filled with sadness and not reciprocated love
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
im sorry
i understand you cant see me
i understand you hurt
i don’t understand
i don’t
why did this happen
was there something i could have done, shouldn’t have done?
should i have kept you at more of a distance?
i would do anything to fix what we had
but it won’t ever come back
i consumed it
my great vast ocean of a never ending empty overwhelming pit of my own gut wrenching, heart slashing sadness
ate our friendship
love,
me,
your sad no longer best friend