Tonight

I am searching for words

that will not come.

I cannot form stanzas

nor lines

nor sentences

because my sanity has                                       fled.

I am s  t  a  g  g  e  r  i  n  g

with each 

s

    t 

      e

        p       and

battling

against the constant knot in my stomch.

Tonight

I am seraching for reasons

I am searching for answers

I am searching for anything

That will help me

move on

forget 

and be happy