I?
Pay no attention to
Anything you're about to see.
We- I don't need you
or your judgement looking at me.
I can be myself
Only when you don't know who I am
So you talk to her instead
The woman; the sham.
She laughs at the jokes
And numbly mumbles replies
Because, you see, she isn't real
She's an empty costume full of lies.
She was useful at first
Don't get me wrong.
All the awful anxiety
Poof, it was gone.
Mystical magical,
but then one became two.
How do you know your real self
When someone else is living for you?
I didn't think they would like me,
Whoever they are.
So I put her in the fire
Hoping to save myself from the char.
But this great facade
comes with an amazing power
No fear, no hurt
We- she is saved from battle.
But what about me?
The girl on the inside,
She- I'm different
I've got no place to hide.
As my outer shell grows stronger
I can't seem to stand up and say
"THIS IS MY BODY"
People like her better, anyway.
So I sit quietly and shrink
She prefers it that way.
I don't choose to live behind the curtain
She forces me to stay.