I’m just trying to find my new normal

Looking back at the photographs of my past twenty-one years

It’s hard to look at my childhood self

Even though I have changed for the better

I miss the old me

 

I’m just trying to find my new normal

Long are the days of innocence and without worries

Now replaced with fear

Fear of the present and the future

There are now so many days and nights my anxieties get ahold of me

My heart racing

Choking on air

And weeping until I fall asleep

 

I’m just trying to find my new normal

Everybody in my life is slowly fading away

Some have passed

Some have shown their true colors

To whom I can never forgive

And to some who no longer genuinely care

 

I’m just trying to find my new normal

Society expects everybody to conform

It seems like everybody has their whole lives planned to a T at age eighteen

I only just figured out the “What do you want to be when you grow up?” question

We were all asked when we were five

While I’m trying to figure out who I truly am

The world keeps turning

Turning

Turning

 

And I’m just trying to figure out my new normal