How screwed up do I have to be
To have feelings for you and not care about me?
You'll toss me around, no thoughts or feelings
And I let you hurt me again like regular dealings.

I just gave up such a long time ago
Stopped caring about the punches you'd throw
Never denying that it was well time to go
But afraid it'd hurt you, kill you, you know?

No matter the way you detested my love
No matter the way you pushed and shoved
For me to leave and return when you blushed
And say "My bad babe, you know you're loved!"

But I'm not loved you ass, just screwed up
By the words you say that strangled and cut
Deeper than any punch or hard shove
You really did a number on me, congrats, I'm fucked!

But you know I'm done, I'm really through
Cause someone's found me, he's better than you
He doesn't sit on my shoulder and say way to do
He loves me with his arms, his lips, and words too.

God for so long I've felt bad about my thoughts
Thinking its harsh to hate you so damn much
To hate how your words stung, your every touch
To hate how I needed you like a sick, perverted crutch.

But I'm not alone anymore, now I see
My family and friends were always there for me
Trying to help me, trying to set me free
From your ever strong hold, so captivating.

Well I'm gone now and all you have left
Is the memory of your abuse and theft
You stole my heart, my freedom, every last breath
I'm done being screwed up by a love of you, a love of death.