I don't self harm

At least

not in the way

people usually think

about

I harm myself

mentally

When you see me 

All you see

is

Smiles

Happiness

Freedom

But sometimes

I feel chained

To these despondent

thoughts

that pull me 

back

into darkness

silent tears

silent Pain

Silently Alone

The scars I give myself can't

be seen

But they are there

slowly hurting 

Reminding me that

I am chained 

How do I break free?

If I reveal my true self

will everyone leave me?

Maybe

Or Maybe I'll be set free