a healthy relationship is not feeling like an ingredient you're not an add on into the measuring cup you're the final meal. the what he should've been waiting for the whole time. you're the scent from the oven that is so warm you feel like you're the sun. you're the sun. you're an endless glow a radiance burning every ounce of negativity. love is when you don't want to go places without them. it's seeing the world together. it's the pain you feel when you aren't together. it's the heaving in your chest when you leave their house at night because god walking out of the green door of apartment 16 feels like you're sloshing through the misty graveyard filled with forgotten skeletons rattling their fingers in the unfertilized soil praying the ghost of harmony shovels them out of the polluted flowered dirt. it's because i love you that my journal is filled with endless metaphors for you. it's no sleep without a goodnight kiss. it's going to our favorite diner every friday. it's filling your bedroom with tye dye balloons as a pre birthday surprise. it's the feeling of worth when you tell me that i'm going to change the world. that my poetry will take me out of this forsaken city. don't you get it? you are all i have. you're the soil that my flower stem dances on. you're the sun and without photosynthesis my flowers would never grow. i've buried myself in you. i gave you my days that i cannot take back. i gave you time that cannot be rest. i gave you red lipped kisses that cannot be unstained. i gave you my poetry that cannot be unwritten. god i would never wish for your brown sugar skin to be unwritten. i keep giving and giving and realizing that i will never ask for anything back. and when the earth has decided it's my time to go and the roots are dragged from underneath me i want you to write to my eulogy. because i love you, i could never imagine writing yours.