hi baby

we haven't talked in forever

too long, i think

i miss you

i miss you a lot

miss your arms

miss your smile

miss your eyes

and i know it's hard for you

hard to believe that those stars you see each night are really people

and it's even harder to believe that all those people are there for you

and i hope you remember how i'm one of those stars

how i'm just another flicker in your massive night sky

and i know it's a different sky every night, too

but please know you are the sun that i orbit around

without you, sometimes i feel like i'm nothing

because i don't know how to be okay 

without you

which is stupid as fuck

because i miss you irrationally

it's shit to be in love with someone you've never met

give me the unrequited office love any day

i'd walk right up to the guy and pour my heart out

nothing to lose

but instead i got dealt the worst hand of cards

i'm in love with you

and it's not that you don't love me back

you can't

see

it's just that you are 5 thousand miles 

4 hotel rooms

3 sleepless nights

2 pillows

and 1 empty bed

away from me

and since when did this

turn into a poem

about how i hate distance

more than the sun

hates the moon

for making it set at night?