18

College

Alive

I didn't think it possible

I wasn't supposed to be here

Now what do I do

1 day I wanna be here the next I don't

My depression goes away and comes right back

Will I ever be ok not if the mental illness doesn't go away

What is life like as a blue jay

Spending days wanting to fly away

The sky is peaceful and happy

Pretty blue clouds even with dreary storms

This life feels so far from home

But then again where is home

Guess I'm confused as to where I am

How did I get here

What am I to do here

Can I make it here

God, help me out here

I'm afraid to pray because I don't wanna be judged

I'm not who you want me to be

But who am I to be here

The good girl who makes everyone laughs and cries under the cover

The bad girl who stirs up trouble

The shy girl who needs to stay alone

The obnoxious girl

There are so many types of girls

Just tell me which one to be here