Has so many thoughts going on in my head. Dont know whether to act happy or still act dead. I try to be myself but they never seem to see what they laugh at is the real me. Sometimes I think I can no longer Cope, but I just go on with a little Hope. At times I cry and wonder "how am i even getting by?". I know i have a few friends but whenever i need them its like , with out me knowing , somewhere our friendship came to an ends. I dont know what to do, I dont know what to say, I just know I have issues almost every day. A question I tend to ask myself: When your heart and your head are telling you two different things and you're scared of what both of them are saying, what do you do?