My Growth Series

 

Kayla Kinsler- Commitment

 

I’m afraid of commitment

Can’t cope with restrictions

I want you with me

But on no serious business

I’m not trying to play games

Don’t want a label, that’s lame

Maybe the circumstance is different

For you I might change

 

Take a look at my past

My heart was cold

Can’t stay tied down

So, I talked to others on the low

But that’s not me anymore

Each day I hope to grow

I can’t do commitment

But for you? Maybe I don’t know
 

It has taken me awhile to let myself feel

Trying to determine what is and isn’t real

I keep myself guarded from those that don’t deserve

And sometimes I cause unintentional hurt

I don’t want this for you

I want to start over new

I want to do this thing right and be comfortable with you

I can’t be afraid of commitment

If it’s with you then I’m with it

Cause you’re the light to my darkness

And together were littest

 

Kayla Kinsler- Believe Me

 

Believe me

Believe me when I say that after all these years, I still think about you

Believe me

Believe me when I say that some nights I lay awake still missing you

The thought of you runs wild through my mind

I crave you

The most innocent parts of you

Your laugh, your smile, your flaws, and all

When you need me I will still be here when you call

Believe me

Believe me when I say I will stay by your side

Through the good and the bad, through thick and thin

This barely explains what I feel within

They say actions speak louder than words

But the words on my paper are feelings unheard

This is a declaration

A declaration of my fascination, my adoration

Everything I find about you is so captivating

I am in love with you

Believe me

Believe me when I say I will still love you

Because I want you, Because I need you

Every single part of you

Believe me

 

Kayla Kinsler- Let it Go

 

Maybe sometimes it’s better to let go

Maybe sometimes it’s better to not ask, to not know

All the secrets locked away behind someone’s true intentions

Or the curiosity of someone either being a blessing or lesson

But you just want to ask questions like,

“Were you looking at this through a different perspective?”

“When did you stop?”

“Or was this your main objective?”

I want an answer, still my heart remains feeble

Of course, I’m upset, but I guess it’s for the better

There’s never a time where I would say I regret ya

All the memories we have, I’ll still remember

But there comes a time where I have to forget you…

 

Kayla Kinsler- Acceptance

 

So many days

Way too many days

Crying, thinking, overwhelming myself

OVER YOU!

It took me awhile

But now I see you from a different point of view

I thought you were the one I wanted

I thought you were the one I needed

I thought that if I had I would feel so… completed

But I was wrong

I was a fool to think that this was lifelong

You’re just toxic to my life

I should’ve known all along

But I should thank you though

I hope you go down the right road

I wish for your future endeavors

And that your dreams don’t go cold

But why though? I don’t know

I’m in a better place now then I was before

That’s the best gift I could ask for

So, I thank you

I’ll do me and you do you

I’ll watch the world unfold before my eyes

And I’ll be happier knowing you’re not by side