Growing Pain
How one looks back
At the clouded idea of what has happened
Defines how the future will unfold
Pain
That used to be scraped knees
Or a break up with the one you thought was "the one"
Then I truly found out
What pain looks like
Pain is the lonesome beat of a heart monitor in a dark hotel room
Clinging to the last ounce of hope
That everything might end up okay
And you will get to live a life without the dark shadow of cancer
Following you around at every turn
Nineteen was supposed to be bonfires at the beach
And long nights studying for tommorrow's midterm
Instead I lay hooked up to countless machines with a gaze
That can only be described as broken
Two weeks flew by as slow as they could
And when the final diagnosis was read
Eupohia overtook the feeling of any medicine they could put in me
...Benign
In that moment, all my future hopes and dreams had the chance
To become a reality
Since then
I have travelled across the world
I have fallen in love
And most importantly
I have realized that I have been broken
Sitting in that hospital room
And I found a way to put myself back together
Now everytime pain comes knocking at my door
I open the door, knowing I can take whatever it has in store
And for that
I am thankful for my time in pain
For it taught me
That the worst pain brings with it the largest opportunities
To grow.