Grow(i)n(g) Up
The day I turned 18,
I announced my independence from my parents.
I’m a grown up, I say to them.
They nod in agreement.
Why not pay for a bill or two?
They ask in negotiation.
So I began to pay for some,
Reluctantly,
But I have a job now
So this is my duty.
I’m a grown up, I tell them,
As my parents whisper family matters.
I have a right to know what’s the chatter.
They agree and begin to tell me
And I learn all of what I never wanted to be
Financial struggles, family fights,
Why my mother can’t sleep in bed at night.
But I am older now, wiser, one might say,
And I get to know the hearsay.
I’m 18 I plead, as I ask my parents for help
Financial struggles, one bill too many i’ve been dealt
I’ve got to pay for school now, all by myself
You’re a grown up, they tell me.
We’ve got our own finances to oversee
I’m only 18, I tell my mom on the phone
As I ask her to come over and help me, I’m all alone
I’m sick with the flu and I could use some TLC
You’re all grown up now, she replies
I don’t understand why you need me?
In this moment it became clear to me
The day I realized I grew up
Was the day I never wanted to be
Anything more than a kid,
With my parents taking care of me.