Back and forth,

In my twenties,

Head so far up my backside,

Traumatising.

 

Had to look,

Deep inside,

What it took,

Huge moment's of my life

 

Found myself fighting,

Demon within,

Found myself wanting,

To do myself in.

 

Wanting to change,

The narrative inside,

Ground hog day kept coming,

What a hellish ride.

 

I thought you was there to help me,

Get things off my chest,

Talk some more,

Talking is best. 

 

Feels like a hamster on a wheel,

Drowning in despair,

Nothing is changing,

Don't think I'll ever repair.

 

Now I know how it feels,

To do life inside,

Trapped inside this dark prison,

I want to die. 

 

Implosion is normal,

Explosion is too,

If I don't have a fight,

I'll be fighting you. 

 

You think you know how I feel?

Crying in despair every day,

On my knee's,

The feeling is real.

 

Think I lost,

A piece of myself back then,

Fighting the insanity,

Total Madness, plus ten. 

 

How did it end,

I really don't know,

Madness became a part of me,

Ask him, he should know. 

 

Insanity,

Much Profanity,

Irrationality,

Total irregularity.

 

That was my life,

Stress and strife,

Uneasy feelings,

They were rife.