Frozen

My soul is frozen

I’m standing on thin ice

My brain is scattered

My heart has shattered

 

I thought we were friends

To me that was a fact

But now I know how it feels

To get stabbed right in the back

 

Your words were like daggers

They went right through me

And it hurt so much more

Than any wound I’d ever received

 

They say actions speak louder than words

But you said plenty that day

And until then, I never knew

You hated me in such a vile way

 

If only I were an octopus;

Born with two hearts

So that while one is breaking

The other won’t be tearing apart

 

This emptiness numbs me from within

Making my insides frozen

And I feel cold

So, so cold…

 

But for now all I can do is

‘Conceal,

                       don’t feel

                                                         …don’t let it show’

~Audrey Mamedu