When the darkeness

draws near

 

 the kind that claws

and pulls at you

and fills you with fear

 

Its hard to find him there

 

When day after day

Month after Month

Year after Year

You live out life in this sort of perpetual state

 

Hoping to move

Believing you will

Losing your way 

but crawling back to the path

 

Its hard to find him there

 

In your mind

Around every corner

Is a pain that cant be expressed

 

No matter how many times you cry

No matter if someone else tries to wipe your eyes

 

Its not something you can share

The burden is yours

Though you know it should be His.

 

He took up the cross

a lomg time ago

It is something

you will always believe

 

Stuck in a place

where you cant move

cant speak

cant see your way out

of the vicious cycle

 

Tired of trying

Frozen

Incomplete

So far gone that you dont believe in yourself

Even though He does

in infinite mercy and grace

 

Sing your pain in songs

That no one ever hears

 

Trapped in yourself

Chained to your past

Because the future

never seems to brighten

 

Wondering what Time

Will be the right Time

Your Time

 

It's not hard to find God

It's holding on to him

 

That is the struggle

The Challenge