Falling Up
i have been asked like everyone else
what do you want to be when you grow up
am i a grown up now-
is it already time for me to finally answer--
what if i told you i still dont know---
i sit on a rooftop looking out at the city skyline
and its changed so much since i first laid eyes on it
and its home to more people than i can possibly fathom
my bodys grown and my minds has aged too
and my legs extend past the edge just a bit longer
and my hands reach out to the stars just a bit closer
im grown
maybe i have grown ever enough
yet i still dont know exactly what i want to be
be-
exist--
subsist---
im sorry
all i want now is to breathe my last breath
all i want now is for my heart to beat its last beat
because i know for certain that i think im tired
and lonelier than i was as a single cell
so intimately isolated by cities of space
the stars somehow seem brighter than before
even though the electric lights outshine them
every second i look up im there
among the eternal stars destined to fizzle out
exploding gloriously during its final moments
i do know what i want to be now that ive grown
i say im tired to the shooting star streaking by
i say im lonely so let me have my wish come true
i extend my legs-
i reach out my hands--
i lean my body beyond the edge---